Isn't it nice when you are lonely and someone took notice of you?
Nicer when that someone gave you extra attention, sends you sweet-nothings over the internet, on your mobile phone, or especially when they start calling you. One time becomes two, and the next thing you know it it has become regular and you have found yourself looking forward to their next message or their next call.

Been there. Done that. That, I could say. And I am not ashame to admit it. In a few different times, I made someone feel good and someone has made me feel good, too. Well, love is a good feeling. And to make things work, both should give and take.

But what happens when the regular messages or the regular calls become lesser and lesser each day? Here's what will happen: First, you will think maybe he/she is busy. Second, you think, You used to text every single time, "hey! I have tons of work but I just wanted to say hi!" or when you get home, you're too excited to text "hey! I'm home. I Miss you already.", even though you haven't really put your bag down nor took your shoes off. That's how excited you were BEFORE. Then what happened? You got tired? You began to hate the routine you have started? What? Rain check?

Yes, some people will and could lead you on. Could be intentionally or not. Just the same, you were somehow misled, made believe that there's something more or that they really like you, and that you have a future together.

I was guilty once. I met someone, I liked someone, and I was honest about it. It was good. And it was a good feeling knowing that this someone likes me in return. We made plans, wished we could be together, we talked a lot, we became open to one another. Then one day I woke up and found in my heart that I no longer like this person. Suddenly I wasn't that interested anymore. So, I made excuses. Told him I was busy. Then I started ignoring the calls. And still as open as I was, I told this person how I felt. That sadly, the interest is gone but I am grateful for what we had-- I was truly grateful. I expect the worse reaction from the other person but there's nothing I can do. I cannot push myself to do something or be with someone I don't like, right? But yeah, I know I have hurt an ego there. But at least this person will not live a life asking "what happened?" or "what's with the distance now?". We can never read what's going on in someone else's mind, can we?

Talk about learning not to leave someone hanging.

Again I met another one. But this time I ended up asking myself those questions. Simply because I was misled by this person's actions. It's wrong to assume something on people. It's wrong to believe that they'd be consistent. The fact is, feelings fluctuate. And if you're single, you'll tell yourself that you have the choice: To stay or get out. Stay when you're enjoying the feeling of liking or loving someone. Get out if it's making you feel miserable or if you don't seem to be interested anymore as much as you were before. These realizations made me the person I am now. Question-free, worry-free, and hopefully wrinkle-free.

Talk about refusing to play-victim and moving on.

Then again, someone has noticed me. The emails, the calls, the sweet words, the nice words. They're all coming back again. And I am back to asking myself, "what's the intention?" and "is this for real or just a trip?".

But honestly, I like the feeling it is giving me. I have this overflowing feeling and I am loving it. I feel good inside and out. Knowing this person I like, likes me in return. Knowing I am missed. I feel great. I feel like I am floating and I am enjoying the moment.

Then I felt scared. I saw myself inside a box again and then I started asking myself, "what if this is just the same box I was in before?".

Then I told myself to stop. Stop assuming. Stop thinking about what's next and just live the moment. I told myself to stop wishing that there could be more. Just enjoy the moment. The NOW.

I guess I'll go a long way if I succeed not doing the things I did before. Even if this one will turn out just the same as the others, I will be okey.

Sometimes, there are things that we cannot explain. And I truly believe that love is one thing that we can never question.

Well as the cliche goes, "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

But who's thinking about losing now?
Live and enjoy the moment while it lasts.

And as of this moment, I have this tickling feeling and a grin stuck in my face.