Who says a long distance relationship is easy? NO ONE. But "how do you cope with it? how do you take control of your emotions?", I was asked. And all that I can say is that all I know is I HAVE TO. I really have to. Not just for myself but for him, too. IT IS NEVER EASY being away from your loved one. You think you're FREE but you're not. There are times that you wanted to be there when he comes home. There are times that you wish you're there with them to take care of them, attend to their needs, prepare them breakfast before they leave for work, do their laundry, wash their dishes, make their bed, or simply be there, just beside them. Be able to hug and kiss them...

 

Now tell me, where is FREEDOM when you couldn't do the things you wish you could or you want to do?

 

But I have been given two options to deal with it. (1) Wallow in distress each day, or (2) think of the good things we have been through together.

 

Okay, we have the word TOGETHER there the fact that we really haven't been together. But you know what? I count every moment that we talk, every exchange of emails, of text messages, every call--- for me they are enough to be considered as good stuff. It helps that he knows how to carry on good and funny conversations everytime we talk. It helps that he is able to make me laugh. It helps that he is able to tell me anything and everything. It helps that he is able to open up. With that I can say, I am in love not with a stranger but with someone I can pour my heart out as well.

 

You see, it is given that our distance is frustrating. Something that we can't do something about right now. But I can deal with it in a lighter way. We don't talk too much, but when we do, I make it a point that I'd remember how he speaks and how we laugh together. It's like a supplement that should last and that would keep me going until the next time that I'd hear his voice again.

 

I have to be strong. I have to learn how to take control. I knew what I was getting into from the very start. I knew it won't be easy but I took the plunge with my whole heart. I made a decision and I have no regrets. I am embracing both the pain of being away and the joy of knowing that someday, we will be together. And when that time comes I know I will be happier. And I know too, that it will be harder to let go and go back to living away from him again. But then I believe, I will be stronger. Both of us will be stronger.