I am Mae German. 34 years old. Born in Mangatarem, province of Pangasinan. I was taught and trained by 
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Some-Kinda-Blog-Stop Sermon to self.
Some-Kinda-Blog-Stop Sermon to self. | Sermon to self. |
| Tuesday, 21 September 2010 | |
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"There will come a time and there comes a time in everyone’s life that there’s nothing and no one you can turn to except on God, and the sooner you rely on God, the better." It was almost a year ago that I heard Fr. Orbos said these words in a Filipino mass online. The sooner and the more you rely on God, the better. But as human as I am, with a pair of old and rugged breeches, I am ashamed to admit that although it sure is better sticking to my usual ways of staying near Him, I let myself destructed and somehow went a little astray. I stopped hearing mass. Not that I have totally stopped praying and talking to Him, but I did stop saying my usual morning and evening prayers. I was aware of what is happening yet I ignored it. Then I came to a point that I would cry just by talking to Him. I was too embarrassed to face him but I know I have to do it. I have to. Not for any reason. I simply must strengthen my grip on Him. Not because I need something but simply because I need Him. He is all I got and He is all I need. I don't care if some people don't get that. I don't care if some people don't understand that. But given the chance and the strength that I need, I will leave anyone or anything that will stand in between Him and me. I will never burn the bridge that connects us together. Because without Him, I am nothing. I could say it was because of my Sunday work that I have stopped hearing mass on Sundays. But a reminder to self: when I was working in CT and I work from Wednesday to Sunday, I would hear mass online on Sundays and hear mass on days that I was off. My point is, there is no such thing as "lack of time" or "too-tired" to hear mass at least once a week. Like the old cliche goes, He gives us 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and all He's asking is 1 hour from that 168 hours in a week. So here's my commitment that is definitely working on my schedule now, having Saturday as my time for "myself". I am selfish, I don't care. I will be hearing the 5pm anticipated mass at the St. Mary's Church in Manhasset. Yes, He's still granting my old wish-- there's a church nearby. |
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