Friday, 03 September 2010
A Threesome Relationship.
Monday, 01 February 2010

"9 masses together, that's how I wanted a guy to court me."

I remember telling it to Carlos in one of our phone conversations in May or June of 2009.

In October 2009, he started the pursuit but I didn't feel like getting in to any relationship yet. Sure, I could be there whenever I feel like it. But to commit myself into something? No, I wasn't ready for that. There's just too many things happening (and waiting to happen) that I cannot see myself committing to someone just yet. I cannot slow down nor I could be slowed down. But sure, I was yearning for love. So I prayed for love to happen. My prayer was a set but the answer came one by one. One, I asked for someone. He came, and so I said, "If you want me, pray. Ask God for my hand. Ask me from God." And he did. I know he did. Two, I asked God for someone who could pray with me. Carlos knows my routine at night. I have my ME-time (fixing myself, getting ready for bed) and I have to end my day with a prayer. Now he's doing it at the same time that I am doing it. We call it our Threesome (God, Carlos, and I) before we call each other and say our goodnights. Three, I asked God for wisdom to know when to move on to the courtship or not. The day came in December that I knew I was all right. I gave him my go signal. 9 masses together. After that we'll see. Either we grow together or we grow apart. Let God work on us.

It wasn't easy on his part. He works six or seven days a week. His day would start as early as 6:30 in the morning and most of the time would end at 8 in the evening. He'd sometimes travel for 2 hours just to get to Manhattan. Seldom are the days that he could leave early. But he was there when he said he would on days that we could both catch the last mass, in the church where he first brought me to-- the Church of St. Francis of Assisi in Midtown Manhattan.

It wasn't really a good news for him when I started planning on my trip to the west coast. But he knew it was a long-time plan and he's seen how excited I was to travel. Knowing the possibility of me, not returning, he kept his silence. With faith, he gave me his full support. Then came my interviews a week before my travel. I was advised by my sponsor not to leave on the 29th of January.

Yesterday, the 31st of January 2010, together with his older brother, Carlos and I have completed our 9 masses together. And guess what the reading is? It's from the book 1 Corinthians 13:1-13.
1    If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2    And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3    If I give away all I have, and if I deliver my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. 4    Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; 5    it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6    it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. 7    Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8    Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9    For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect; 10    but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away. 11    When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12    For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood. 13    So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
We're two imperfect souls, but we have a Perfect God. We have anchored our faith in Him. And wherever this will lead us to, whatever we'd end up, we have faith, that it is for our own good and for God's greater glory. That is what WE believe in.

My only prayer now is that after the ninth mass, may there be more. May our faith grow more as we walk together with God in our midst, always. Then I believe, we will grow better, together.

May God guide us all in our prayers.
 
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