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Some-Kinda-Blog-Stop For now, the answer is NO.
Some-Kinda-Blog-Stop For now, the answer is NO. | For now, the answer is NO. |
| Saturday, 28 November 2009 | |
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Another holiday is over (still, try to check these orlando vacations for the next one) and soon the changing of season will come. And of course, there's Christmas-- the most sorrowful occasion for those who are away from their loved ones; the most hopeful event for some; the happiest for those who are surrounded with love and affection. "The thing about love is that we can't control whether we get it, but we can control whether we give it. And each feels as good as the other..." - Lisa Scottoline, author, Why My Third Husband Will Be A Dog In one of our phone conversations, my mother asked me again if I already have a boyfriend. My answer was 'no'. And just recently, another friend asked me if someone is courting me. Once again, without batting an eye lash, my answer was 'no '. If they have asked a different question, like if I am going on dates, I could have answered a different answer-- 'yes', even though I hate that term-- date. Dating for me is overrated. I don't like pretensions. I hate pa-tweetums and pa-cute effects. I dislike those dramas (believe me, in this age, guys like that still exist). I hate idle moments. I hate being pressured to think what topic we'd talk about next. I hate being the one to plan for a day's trip (But hey! It wasn't my intention to cancel on one date with this one guy before and it wasn't because he delegated that task to me. But yes, I hate that task.). I hate the word 'hate' and I am using it! hah!. And yes, I am dating. There, I said it! JS was so right, I cannot be with someone who cannot take the wheel from me. I am all over town. I cannot be with someone who cannot grab me by the hand and command me to stay put. But I cannot be with someone who'd take a grip on my free spirit, too. Everyone needs TLC but just the same, everyone needs a room for individual growth. For the past couple of months, I have been trying to weigh things, whether to keep my door shut or open it for a change. So yes, after praying for it, a few days ago, I have opened my door. My kind of courtship may be odd or weird but I am sticking to it. I am not taking away God from the formula. Relationships should never be a twosome, but a threesome. Laugh, but I am not changing my equation. No flowers please, but prayers. Not for me, but with me. And if one cannot find 'fun' in that, step away. I am serious. Walk away. The road ain't narrow, the door ain't close. It is not that I think too much, I just know who, my priority, is. I have been reckless once too many times. It is not that I do not have emotions left now. Love is out of the question. It's there. It. Is. There. But until the courtship is over, the answer would be a 'no'. I have my prerogatives and I am grateful for those who respect that. Courtship is not a matter of testing one's faith or patience. Never a test but a question of one's commitment. |
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