(My confession: an advice to a friend)

Don't give up. I know how you feel when your family... especially your parents are against the one you love... I feel that way too when my mom was against my boyfriend... We've been steady then for like what.. 5 years? And still she cannot accept my boyfriend... but I guess she has realized lately that she has to let go already. There was even a time that she tried to match me up with her bestfriend's son (who is base in U.S.). She gave my number to her bestfriend, and I think they tried to push the guy to call me and my mom said... "May tatawag sa iyong anak ng kumare ko, makikipagkaibigan lang naman".  And I said. "Sure! Makikipagkaibigan lang pala eh!" then every now and then she's going to ask me: "O, ano? tumawag na ba?" which I was thankful because the guy never called. Then when my lolo & lola from CA came home for a vacation... the topic was brought up. They agree with the set up of having someone from the U.S. falling in love me so that someone could bring me there. And of course I feel sh*t!  Di naman sila nakakabastos noh???!!!! They know I'm madly involved with my boyfriend for years already yet they talk that way in front of me?! But I just shut my mouth then... I don't want to interrupt their delusion. It's their dream... and I don't care about it knowing that my own happiness is at stake... I just keep on praying and telling myself:  I HOPE THEY JUST LET GO AND JUST SUPPORT ME & WISH ME LUCK ON MY CHOICES AND DECISIONS. Along with my faith in God and my faith in my relationship with my boyfriend, I stick with my heart's choice. And soon enough... I think my mom realized that she cannot do something about my decisions and that she has to let go of me. I know she likes my long-time boyfriend now. He has proven his intentions (constantly running errands and driving us around when my mom is here in Manila). And they learned that he's being paid good on his job... I think that also helped her accept him. Maybe they're just after my future. Maybe they're just afraid that my future-partner cannot provide for my future-family. And she's hoping that when I get to the states, I could buy all the things that I wish to have... or things she wasn't able to give me when I was a kid. They did not think that I'm doing fine and somehow I am happy with whatever I have at hand right now. Yes, sometimes I'm looking for some materialistic satisfaction... but tell me, who's perfectly contented and satisfied in this planet anyway? Even the richest man who has everything feels discontented most of the time, right? Anyways, I know my mom has already approved of my boyfriend. And I am very thankful to God because that's an answered prayer. Oh well... I still don't know what is in store for me in my future but I know 3 sure things: that (1)Today, I am sure God will provide me with whatever need I have  (2)  That I am with somebody I love (who loves me back the same) and (3) Today, I am going to stick with him through thick & thin. Never mind tomorrow... it's too much to worry about. As they say... Isn't it TODAY, the TOMORROW, we've been worrying about YESTERDAY?   oh well... getting deeper! *arrrrgghhh!* All I have to tell you is that as long as you're sure you love your boyfriend, as long as he doesn't hurt you physically, as long as he's not harming anybody, as long as you think you could be a better person with him, then shut your ears with what other people will tell you. Yes, even if those people are your family. You know him better and you will know him more. Eventually, if they see that your life has changed to BETTER with him around... THEY WILL AGREE WITH HIM. Just give yourself some time. Give your family some time. Be strong and be strong with prayers. Everything will fall into places. Of course you have to assure him, too, that even though your family is against him, you'll still stick with him. It's hard for you that some of your family are against him.. but it's even harder for him. Just ask God to take control everytime the road is getting rocky. =) 

In Black 'n White - 02.18.2003