I don't know how to start writing this article. Neither do I know how to start getting your attention and getting you to talk to me even for a while. But I'm starting anyway.

I don't want to take it but I think it's already a fact that it's really hard to get into you or even get you to talk to me or to anybody who would want to reach out to you. Believe me, even your so-called friends told me so.

Should I guard my tongue everytime I speak with you? Don't you listen to a friend who talks non-sense "sometimes"? Or you don't call them "friends" if they talk non-sense, huh? You can't even answer a straight question such as "where do you work?" or "where's your office located?". What's with those questions anyway? I know your job is good and you're doing good at it. Sometimes you get into my nerves but I tell myself... maybe that's really you and I have to accept that. Or maybe I should take other people's opinion... that you're smart and your religion is different than most of us (talk about being unreasonable!). Some even says it's because you graduated in a university where most of the people think they are smarter than everybody else and that they don't stoop down to anybody else's level... not even to answer simple question. Is that it? It's not what I used to know about you. I used to believe you were my friend whom I could talk to about anything in this planet. May it be non-sense or grave non-sense. But I think I have to give in to what I hear from people you've grown up with after we've lost contact (say more than a decade ago?).

Sometimes I can't help wondering why I insist on talking to you. Is it because I am being challenged by your attitude? Or is it because I have missed you (my old friend) for a long time and now that you're just a word away, I'm trying to reach out and grab you back? Sometimes I wonder if I have to let go of you or stick around until you asked me to let go. Or wait until you make me feel you wanted me to get lost. Hmmm... Mind you! There were times you made me feel that way. I tried to shut up and never talk to you again but I think I have this nature of repeating something which I think is not a wrong.

Now I'm confused. Could you do yourself a favor? (At least before I do myself a favor of giving up on you. I don't want to do that!) Talk To Me! Tell me how you're really doing and what really happened during the past decade. Or at least help me answer my own questions. Just talk, ok?