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Tuesday, 17 June 2008 |
I have to do it sooner than we planned. My membership at the gym will end in August but I have to cut the service of my personal trainer by the end of this week. We have three sessions for this week. Last one now, since I've used up one session yesterday and one today.
I have no idea how I'd survive without my PT on my every gym session. Of course I'd cope up but it's really different when you have someone attending to your every need, making sure you're following your program and you're doing the right stretching for each kind of exercise (like if you're doing biceps, you do this kind of stretching after, etc., etc.). Making sure I don't hurt myself, especially not my back, I have had a bad-lower-back history lifting some wooden cabinet in my room. Making sure that every strained muscle that I used up were back to normal at the end of our session.
I will honestly miss the extreme stretching (I love the extra push and the support every time we do our exercises) and the back massage before I hit the sauna. *sigh*
"But I could no longer afford to pay for your services," I was shy to admit it to him. Knowing he did not really charge me that much, the fact that he travels from Bulacan sometimes just to attend to me at the gym. He only works for the gym on Saturdays and Sundays. I go to the gym on weekdays. Maybe I was his first trainee (he's a fresh college graduate), I might have failed him in two-fold.
One. (IMHO) the fee that we had dealt upon was good enough to support his fare and meal allowance for each day that he travels to the gym (for our session). I don't think he's saved something from that. I am sorry but I feel unhappy if that is so. Remember why I took his services in the first place? I'd like to help someone who's just starting a life after college, that's what I told myself. And that's one of the reasons too why I have thought of giving him up now -- I don't think I was helping.
Two. I could have helped him boost his confidence if we reached our goal of 100lbs. But it's been almost two months since we have started with our program. I am still 104lbs. With that I know I have failed him as my personal trainer and I have failed myself.
You know what they say when either one of the people in a relationship is not getting any better?
Break-up.
Aside from my financial need for the next couple of months, it is one of the reasons why I have to end our (personal) trainer-trainee relationship. I was thinking maybe he could get someone who could afford to pay him more than what I was paying him and with a schedule that is less demanding and less erratic than mine. And me? Well, while my commitment to go to the gym is still there, I would need more than that actually-- Discipline in what I eat, that is, if I want to reach our goal, which, I think I can do on my own with the program that he's prepared for me, which, for the last couple of sessions, he's been trying to make me memorize or at least remember each item.
Maybe for him, it's just business, but I am grateful for every effort that he's given to each of our sessions.
I know I can always ask for assistance from the other trainers' on duty whenever I work out so I won't hurt myself when lifting some weights. But believe me, having a PT and knowing you're not alone on your goal, has made my work out much fun. My PT was my gym-buddy. It's sad that I have to let him go. But sooner or later, I will have to anyway.
"Can you give me a copy of our program so I could bring it anywhere I go?" that was my last request. I wish I will never have to stop going to the gym and I wish I'd reach our goal and keep it that way someday.
The 100-pound challenge is on. And soon, I will be doing it on my own. 
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